Thursday, November 24, 2016

Constructing Our Stories

List of 10 Words
  1. Integral
  2. Emergent
  3. Pedagogies
  4. Inherently
  5. Quadratic
  6. Paradoxical
  7. Exalt
  8. Exacerbated
  9. Espoused
  10. Interpsychological development 
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List of 10 People
  1. Mom
  2. Dad
  3. Brother
  4. Cousin
  5. Ex boyfriend
  6. Best Friend
  7. 12th grade English Teacher
  8. Grandma
  9. Mentor
  10. Step-Dad
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My ex boyfriend and I were together for only a year, but I learned a lot in that amount of time and the time since then. We broke up about a year ago and it was a bad one. I knew it was time to leave the relationship when we would have fights almost every day about nothing, but it took me about 3-4 months to actually leave and stay gone. Of course at the start he seemed perfect, but after some time he showed his true colors. He was very controlling, jealous, possessive, and insecure. Since I was “in love”, I let a lot of it slide and it only got worse from there. I began to distance myself from my friends and family just to please him but it was never enough for him. Aside from his ways, I grew to be very stubborn and impatient with him, so it only added fuel to the fire. The fights continued,the jealousy continued, and my impatient ways continued. And I still stayed because after every fight he was always so apologetic and thought things would change but I was stuck in the same routine. Once I felt like enough was enough, I finally put myself first and stopped thinking about how he may suffer if I left him and actually left him. Even though he blamed me for everything during and after the relationship, I learned that I cannot stay where I am not happy. Ever since that break up, I know what I can and will not tolerate with anyone. I’ve grown stronger and realized that I do not need to be in a relationship to be happy. I also realized I can’t be happy in a relationship when I have lots of growing to do. I wasn’t the most understanding or patient person, but now I’m working on being just that. If it wasn’t for that relationship, I would’ve never realized that I had to change some of my ways and I would’ve never known what I won’t tolerate from people anymore. Even though the relationship ended on a bad note, I’m glad I went through it because it was definitely a life lesson.

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